I got this DVD called The Open Table because I thought it looked interesting and also thought my roommate might like it as he is searching for God. It has five 10-minute videos of people being interviewed about their faith in Jesus. What makes it so interesting is the wide range of people being interviewed at what appears to be their homes or some special place of choice. Some of the people are really chill and appear to have smoked a few before they got saved, others are more thoughtfully organized, and some are just a little mushy gushy. But ALL of them are so encouraging to listen to as they talk about how God worked in their hearts to bring them to Himself.
I was touched in the simplest of ways by what this older guy said. He didn't appear to be a very emotional type of person but for some reason it's those people that touch me the most when they do get emotional, especially when it's about how God broke into their hearts. This particular guy said there was a point after a while where he just broke down and told God, "I'm yours. I don't know what you have in store for me but I'm yours." Oh my gosh, those words were left hanging in the air as I lay in bed that night. I had said that to God so many times before but it had been so long since I had really said it from my heart.
It's such a simple statement but I think when I slip gradually back into trying to run my own life, it becomes something I forget to acknowledge and tell him. I'm realizing that this is probably something I need to say every day. My heart often needs to be reminded where it really belongs. It's how I started this crazy but wonderful relationship with my Maker and it's how I want to continue it every day. And I can't wait to finally say it in heaven for the first time when I will actually feel the fullness of being completely His forever.
And so I told God that night for the first time in a while...
I'm yours. Everything. I don't know what the future holds but I'm yours.
